let go. be free. smile. be jovial. be silly.

don't be afraid to be alone. around u. angels. be with them.

cry. laugh. let's do it together.

simple. back to basic. no more twists and turn.

i have you
the greatest stranger ever yet seem close to me.

hidup ini indah. pejam mata buka hati. lihat dunia. :)

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

- Robert Frost (1874 - 1963)
The Road Not Taken

The title may not correlated with what i am going to say. apparently there is some. few things spark a different side of me lately. to the world which might bleak and harsh. i learn from the ash and make a fresh start.

few weeks have been reckless, hectic, and unbearable for me to explain in a state of tiredness. well i am tired. needless to say unstoppable assignments and projects need to be submitted in a given time transform me into a nonsensical person for a few days. *weng* i can say. :) sorry for those who become the victim of my kewengan. no need to mention who. you people know who u are. ;)

tired is when i felt like a punching bag got beaten up all over the body. weary is when i felt like purging every drop of nescafe down my throats. life been like a circle where it rotate and u end up driving the same point. it's boring despite the happiness and crappiness. well that life it is. at the end it's back to square one. i am tired and i have to bare in my miniscule brain i need a break.

Lately, my beliefs have been shaken by someone who i considered a very good person in and out. i keep pondering that unspeakable truth is better then the one we painly knew. the ugly and the reality of world. what u see is what u got. not ever thinking of what is hidden beneath it. to me, my feeling is prohibited to open up to anyone. i am me. and i've been like this for a long period of time. i am a good listener towards my family, friends and lover but it end up i am alone keep fuzzing with my own feeling. exploding is the right word to describe how much i needed someone to talk but it is simply me who rejected everyone. there's a saying said what you don't know, won't hurt you, so i deliberately hold on to it. how silly i am but that is the road which i've choose. so now, will i ever get the chance to change my path. i don't know. but it's worth a try. secretive is destructive

i don't wanna think of the aftermath as it's way too scary than screwing up the SP Test.

i miss home. badly.

I hardly update. It's been a while. The urge of laziness is suffocating me till i abandoned this page for nearly two months, i guess.

I hardly update and i don't understand why i even privated it for a while.

but it come out with a point that there's a lot of things happened tangled around me and how least i live up with people's expectation.

and so here i am admitting i do miss blogging and shall write and post.